new baby in da house yeah!

yess!
blog nih dah bersawang disana sini.
tidak, ini tidak membanggakan.
takda alasan, cuma macam da bosan.

hahahaha,
blog ni aritu da rosak sane sini,
tak kluar mende2 sane sini,
post rosak sane sini,
dan still masih rosak,
ta bley nak post gambar,
dia kluar hurup2 yg saya ta paham.

hahahaha,
jadi saya memberitahu diri lupakan saja blog ni,
hahaha,
tapi tak sampai ati...
sebab sayang saya pun baca blog ni...
hahahaha.
walaupun silent reader jer...
XD

tuje,
post ala bersahaja.
ada masa nanti tambah lagi...
memandangkan saya dah ditahun akhir sekarang,
banyak nak cerita,
hahaha,
biasala,
orang da tua. Xp

그 사람 (That Person), Lee Seung Chul (Bread, Love and Dream/ Baker King Kim Tak Goo OST)

Hangul

그 사람 날 웃게 한 사람
그 사람 날 울게 한 사람
그 사람 따뜻한 입술로 내게
내 심장을 찾아준 사람

그 사랑 지울 수 없는데
그 사랑 잊을 수 없는데
그 사람 내 숨 같은 사람
그런 사람이 떠나가네요.

그 사람아 사랑아 아픈 가슴아
아무것도 모른 사람아.
사랑했고 또 사랑해서
보낼 수 밖에 없는 사람아.. 내 사랑아

내 가슴 너덜 거린데도
그 추억 날을 세워 찔러도
그 사람 흘릴 눈물이
나를 더욱더 아프게 하네요

그 사람아 사랑아 아픈 가슴아
아무것도 모르는 사람아
눈물 대신 슬픔 대신
나를 잊고 행복하게 살아줘...내 사랑아

우리삶이 다해서 우리 두눈 감을때 그때 한번 기억해

그 사람아 사랑아 아픈 가슴아
아무것도 모른 사람아

사랑했고 또 사랑해서
보낼 수 밖에 없는 사람아..

내 사랑아 내 사랑아 내 사랑아

Romanji

geu saram nal utge han saram
geu saram nal ulge han saram
geu saram ttatteutan ipsullo naege
nae simjangeul chajajun saram

geu sarang jiul su eomneunde
geu sarang ijeul su eomneunde
geu saram nae sum gateun saram
geureon sarami tteonaganeyo.

geu sarama saranga apeun gaseuma
amugeotdo moreuneun sarama.
saranghaetgo tto saranghaeseo
bonael su bakke eomneun sarama.. nae saranga

nae gaseum neodeol georindedo
geu chueok nareul sewo jjilleodo
geu saram heullil nunmuri
nareul deoukdeo apeuge haneyo

geu sarama saranga apeun gaseuma
amugeotdo moreuneun sarama
nunmul daesin seulpeum daesin
nareul itgo haengbokhage sarajwo...nae saranga

urisarmi dahaeseo uri dunun gameulttae geuttae hanbeon gieokhae

geu sarama saranga apeun gaseuma
amugeotdo moreuneun sarama.
saranghaetgo tto saranghaeseo
bonael su bakke eomneun sarama..
nae saranga nae saranga nae saranga

English That person was the one who made me smile That person was the one who made me cry With her warm lips to me That person found my heart

I can’t erase that love
I can’t forget that love
That person was like my oxygen
That person is now leaving

That person. That love. My aching heart
You didn’t know anything
I loved you, and I love you
That’s why I have no choice but to let you leave… my love

Even if my heart becomes tattered
Even if that memory pains me all day
The tears that person sheds
Hurts me even more

That person. That love. My aching heart
You didn’t know anything
Instead of tears, instead of pain
Forget about me and live happily… my love

When our lives are over and we close our eyes,
Then remember me one time

That person. That love. My aching heart
You didn’t know anything
I loved you, and I love you
That’s why I have no choice but to let you leave… my love

my love… my love… my love…

i am working!

choi siwon of super junior. (dont bother the misplace outline, i didnt aware it when flattening the drawing, mianhe)

Some Randomness Drawings

*Donghae SuJu wannabe*

*some guy from BEAST wannabe (sorry you BEAST fan's)*

HEY!

*gegege, si gila tersayang*

hahaha, lama tak update. Busy, orang jauh dah balik. hahaha. So, just upload some pictures pastu nak tido. Besok nak jalan jauh, hahaha.

seyes weyh, saye ade WACOM. korang yang kate saye tipu tu memang sampah la kan. ingat saye ni hina sangat ke nak menipu?... huuuh...!

Kim Jong Kook, Don't Be Good To Me Lyric (Hangul,Romanji&English)

Hangul

자꾸 잘해 주지 마요 더는 잘해 주지 마요

차라리 차가운 게 오히려 나을 텐데
아님 무관심 한 게 오히려 나을 텐데

옷자락 끝에 묻은 먼지를 떼주는 일
무심코 웃으면서 어깨에 기대는 일

그냥 버릇 일 꺼야 지워보고 바쁘게 하룰 보내봐도
눈에 찍힌 사진처럼 또 생각나고 생각나

*. 자꾸 잘해 주지 마요 더는 잘해 주지 마요 또 다시
사랑 앞에 무릎 꿇고 아파할 자신 없네요

혹시 다른 맘이라면 나완 다른 맘이라면 누군가
물어보면 소개해요 그냥 아는 사람 이라고 담담하게

며칠 전 내게 했던 늦은 밤 그 전화는
못 받은 게 아니라 받을 수 없었어요

혹시 술에 취해서 생각 없이 외로운 맘에 보고 싶다
말할까 봐 아침이면 다 아닌 일이 될까 봐

*.Repeat

사랑 그 하나만으로 세상 모든 걸 가졌던 그때로
그리워도 돌아가는 길을 찾을 수 없어서
혹시 같은 맘 일까 봐 나와 같은 맘 일 까봐
또 다시 기대하고 또 기다리죠 사랑 앞에서 나 오늘도 바보처럼

그대 앞에 또 서성이죠 바보처럼


Romanji

jakku jalhae juji mayo deoneun jalhae juji mayo

charari chagaun ge ohiryeo naeul tende
anim mugwansim han ge ohiryeo naeul tende
otjarak kkeute mudeun meonjireul ttejuneun il
musimko useumyeonseo eokkaee gidaeneun il

geunyang beoreut il kkeoya jiwobogo bappeuge harul bonaebwado
nune jjikhin sajincheoreom tto saenggangnago saenggangna

jakku jalhae juji mayo deoneun jalhae juji mayo tto dasi
sarang ape mureup kkurko apahal jasin eomneyo
hoksi dareun mamiramyeon nawan dareun mamiramyeon nugunga
mureobomyeon sogaehaeyo geunyang aneun saram irago damdamhage

myeochil jeon naege haetdeon neujeun bam geu jeonhwaneun
mot badeun ge anira badeul su eobseosseoyo
hoksi sure chwihaeseo saenggak eobsi oeroun mame bogo sipda
malhalkka bwa achimimyeon da anin iri doelkka bwa

jakku jalhae juji mayo deoneun jalhae juji mayo tto dasi
sarang ape mureup kkurko apahal jasin eomneyo
sarang geu hanamaneuro sesang modeun geol gajyeotdeon geuttaero
geuriwodo doraganeun gireul chajeul su eobseoseo
hoksi gateun mam ilkka bwa nawa gateun mam il kkabwa
tto dasi gidaehago tto gidarijyo sarang apeseo na oneuldo babocheoreom

geudae ape tto seoseongijyo babocheoreom


English

Stop being good to me
Don't be good to me anymore

It might be better to be cold to me
Or ignoring me might be better for me
Brushing off the dust on my collar
Carelessly laughing and leaning on my shoulder

I let it go, telling myself that its just a habit and busy my day
But I think about ti again and again as if I took a picture

Stop being good to me
Don't be good to me anymore
I don't have the confidence to kneel my knees and be hurt by love
If you have other thoughts than me, if you have different thoughts than me.
If somebody asks you who I am, nonchantly introduce me as just someone you know

The phone call a couple of days ago at night, that call...
it's not that I didn't wat to answer, but I couldnt
Just in case I tell you I miss you when I'm drunk
because in the morning, I'll regret it

Stop being good to me
Don't be good to me anymore
I don't have the confidence to kneel my knees and be hurt by love
Although I had the whole world because of love
Although i miss it, I'm unable to find the way

Just in case you have the same thoughts as me,
if you happen to have the same thoughts of me
I wait again and again.
I am a fool infront of love again.
I cling to you again, like a fool.

Stop being good to me
Don't be good to me anymore

그남자 / Keunamja / That Man (Secret Garden (2010) OST)

Hangul

한 남자가 그대를 사랑합니다
그 남자는 열심히 사랑합니다
매일 그림자처럼 그대를 따라 다니며
그 남자는 웃으며 울고 있어요
얼마나 얼마나 더 너를
이렇게 바라만 보며 혼자
이 바람같은 사랑 이 거지같은 사랑
계속해야 니가 나를 사랑하겠니
조금만 가까이 와 조금만
한 발 다가가면 두 발 도망가는
널 사랑하는 날 지금도 옆에 있어
그 남잔 웁니다
그 남자는 성격이 소심합니다
그래서 웃는 법을 배워봅니다
친한 친구에게도 못하는 얘기가 많은
그 남자의 마음은 상처 투성이
그래서 그 남자는 그댈 널 사랑했대요 똑같아서
또 하나 같은 바보 또 하나 같은 바보
한번 나를 안아주고 가면 안되요
난 사랑받고 싶어 그대여
매일 속으로만 가슴 속으로만
소리를 지르며 그 남자는
오늘도 그 옆에 있데요
그 남자가 나라는 건 아나요
알면서도 이러는 건 아니죠
모를거야 그댄 바보니까
얼마나 얼마나 더 너를
이렇게 바라만 보며 혼자
이 바보같은 사랑 이 거지같은 사랑
계속해야 니가 나를 사랑하겠니
조금만 가까이 와 조금만
한 발 다가가면 두 발 도망가는
널 사랑하는 날 지금도 옆에 있어
그 남잔 웁니다

Romanji

han namja-ka keudaereul sarang-hamnida
keu namjaneun yeol-shimhi sarang-hamnida
mae-il keurimjacheoreom keudaereul ttara tanimyeo
keu namjaneun useumyeo ul-ko isseoyo

eolmana eolmana teo neo-reul
ireohke baraman bomyeo honja
i paramgateun sarang i keoji-gateun sarang
kyeso-khaeya ni-ga nareul sarang-ha-ge-nni
jo-geumman gakka-i wah cho-geumman
han bal ta-gakamyeon tu bal domangganeun
neol sarang-haneun nal chigeumdo yeope isseo
keu namjan umnida

keu namjaneun seongkyeo-gi soshimhamnida
keuraeseo unneun peobeul baewotomnida
chinhan chingue-gedo mothaneun yaegi-ka manheun
keu namjaye ma-eumeun sang-cheo tuseongi

keuraeseo keu namjaneun keudael
neol sarang-haet-daeyo ttokkata-seo
tto hana ga-teun pabo tto hana ga-teun pabo
han-beon nareuranaju-go kamyeon andwehyo
nan sarangbad-ko shipeo keu-daeyeo
mae-il so-geuroman kaseum so-geuroman
sorireul ji-reumyeo keu namjaneu-no-neuldo keu yeope it-deyo

keu namja-ga naraneun geonanayo
al-myeon-seo-do i-reo-neun geonanijyo
moreul-keoya keudaen pabonikka
eol-mana eol-mana teo neoreul

ireohke baraman bomyeo honja
i pabo-gateun sarang i geoji-gateun sarang
kyeso-khaeya ni-ga nareul sarang-ha-ge-nni
jo-geumman gakkayi wah jo-geumman
han bal da-gakamyeon du bal tomankkaneun
neol sarang-haneun nal chigeumdo yeope isseo
keu namjan umnida

English Translation

One man loves you
That man loves you with all his heart
Everyday like a shadow he follows you around
When that man smiles he is crying on the inside

How much longer
Do I have to just look at you alone
This love like the wind
This worthless love
If I keep trying will it make you fall in love with me
come a little bit closer
Just a little bit
I'm the one who loves you
Right now by your side
That man is crying

That man is very shy
So he learned how to laugh
There is so much that can't be said even amongst close friends
That man's heart is full of scars

So that man
Loved you because you were the same
Just another fool
Just another fool
Is it wrong to ask you to hold me once before you leave?
I want to be loved..its true
Every day inside...Inside his heart...He shouted and
That man is by your side again today

Do you know that I'm that man?
You wouldn't act this way if you knew
You wouldn't know because you're a fool

How much longer
Do I have to look at you like this alone?
This stupid love
This worthless love
If I keep trying will it make you fall in love with me
come a little bit closer
Just a little bit
If I take one step forward you take two steps back
I'm the one who loves you
Right now by your side
That man is crying

terima kasih dunia moden.

ehem. okay, hye. ape khabar? sihat? alhamdulillah. hahaha.... *abaikan*

saye dengan bangganye ingin menyatakan bahawa kini saye dah mempunyai tablet WACOM. hahaha, seronok, okeyh. harge? tak payah citer, buat sakit hati je. lantak pi, mai kite citer kehebatan WACOM. Tablet ni mempunyai fungsi yang sangat best, dimane, korang mampu menghasilkan lukisan seperti korang lukis atas kertas, of kos, dengan kerjasama photoshop ataupun yang sewaktu dengannye. kalau korang terel lukis atas kertas, korang mesti terel lukis pakai WACOM nih.

*beginilah rupa WACOM Bamboo saye. exactly the same*

memang best, tapi mase memule pakai akan terasa kekok dan tension disebabkan pen yang over sensitip. tapi bila korang dah terel pakai, korang akan terasa sedikit addicted sebab masyooook oh pakai bende nih. hahahaha. kelebihan pakai WACOM nih, korang safe kertas, ye, sayangilah pokok kita. kedua, korang safe pensil, tak payah dah nak pi kedai UniPrint beli lead pensil mekanikel korang ataupun sibuk-sibuk nak beli pensil 2b la, 3b la. pakai je brush yg ade lam potosop tuh. pastu korang gerenti safe pemadam, simpan je pemadam tu buat exam final. hahaha. tapi kekurangan die, korangnye bil letrik pasti akan melambung-lambung gitu. hahaha, saye nye bil bulan lepas dah cecah rm400. hahaha, bayangkan, duk umah sengsorang pon ley sampai rm400. gila ah, mau mati nak bayo bil. hahaha.

so far, saye mampu menghasilkan lukisan seperti biase saye bwat atas kertas. berikut adalah contoh lukisan sayer. haaaahaaaaahaaaaa. *dah pandai pakai*

*if you guys are fan of K-POP, you'll find that the guy on the left does look like Hero Jaejoong of TVXQ/JYJ righty? hahaha, i try to draw him as much as i can*

efek cuti terlalu lama.

hahaha... ni la efek cuti lama sangat. maap ye le, saye ni tak ley cuti lame2 sangat banyak sangat side efek die.. hahaha, bukan tak berysukur pade pihak kerajaan yang bagi cuti lelame ni, cuma agak tertekan lah bila cuti lame2 pastu mak bapak tak bagi kerja. camni la jadik nye. top 10 side efek cuti semester yang terlalu lama:

1. tak ingat tarikh dan hari
2. duit keluar melimpah ruah macam air terjun
3. pengaruh drama jepun/korea yang terlampau
4. lemak bertambah dengan pesat
5. impian yang bukan2 bertambah tanpa mengambil kira dunia realiti
6. bil letrik melambung macam nak rak
7. memasak tanpa menghiraukan citarasa orang rumah
8. comatose sampai pukol 12 tengahari
9. bilik menjadi stor
10. lupa macam mana nak tulis nama pakai pen/pensil.


p/s: Since i am a VIP:BigBang, haritu, 15/6/2011, i've gone for Korean Wave Singapore!!! yes! i've been there! hahahaha!!! hahahaha!!! <----- one of reason duit melimpah ruah keluar... (i_i)

so, this is my image upload.

foto of d day

foto of d day

some stone art i made during picnic, hahaha, its lame, i knew. all of this foto taken using 6mpixl point&shoot kodak camera.

Assigment: Forest Ecology, Greenhouse Effect

The greenhouse effect often gets a bad rap because of its association with global warming, but the truth is we couldn't live without it. The greenhouse effect is a process by which thermal radiation from a planetary surface is absorbed by atmospheric greenhouse gases. About 30 percent of the sunlight that beams toward Earth is deflected by the outer atmosphere and scattered back into space. The rest reaches the planet's surface and is reflected upward again as a type of slow-moving energy called infrared radiation.

The heat caused by infrared radiation is absorbed by greenhouse gases such as water vapor, carbon dioxide, ozone and methane, which slows its escape from the atmosphere. Although greenhouse gases make up only about 1 percent of the Earth's atmosphere, they regulate our climate by trapping heat and holding it in a kind of warm-air blanket that surrounds the planet. Without this process, scientists estimate that the average temperature on Earth would be colder by approximately 30 degrees Celsius (54 degrees Fahrenheit), which are far too cold to sustain our current ecosystem.

How Do Humans Contribute to the Greenhouse Effect?

While the greenhouse effect is an essential environmental prerequisite for life on Earth, there really can be too much of a good thing.

The problems begin when human activities distort and accelerate the natural process by creating more greenhouse gases in the atmosphere than are necessary to warm the planet to an ideal temperature.

Burning natural gas, coal and oil -including gasoline for automobile engines-raises the level of carbon dioxide in the atmosphere.

Some farming practices and land-use changes increase the levels of methane and nitrous oxide.

Many factories produce long-lasting industrial gases that do not occur naturally, yet contribute significantly to the enhanced greenhouse effect and "global warming" that is currently under way.

Deforestation also contributes to global warming. Trees use carbon dioxide and give off oxygen in its place, which helps to create the optimal balance of gases in the atmosphere. As more forests are logged for timber or cut down to make way for farming, however, there are fewer trees to perform this critical function.

Population growth is another factor in global warming, because as more people use fossil fuels for heat, transportation and manufacturing the level of greenhouse gases continues to increase. As more farming occurs to feed millions of new people, more greenhouse gases enter the atmosphere.

Ultimately, more greenhouse gases means more infrared radiation trapped and held, which gradually increases the temperature of the Earth's surface and the air in the lower atmosphere.

foto of d day

two cups of good coffee and a great board game. a good way to spend times.

foto of d day

self reflection

Assigment: Forest Ecology

Why ecology is important to us.

Ecology is a scientific study of how organisms interact with each other and their environments, forms an essential component of our understanding of the world in which we live. We study ecology for two reasons: to gain the intellectual gratification that comes from understanding natural patterns and processes, and to apply that understanding to environmental problems that confront mankind. As concern rises over the human impact on the environment with mounting evidence of global warming, increasing rates of tropical deforestation, accelerating rates of species extinctions, and expanding use of genetically modified organisms, the need for ecologists to understand and address these problems has never been greater.

Whilst the challenges posed by these problems are enormous, rapid advances in ecology and related environmental sciences are spectacularly increasing our abilities to predict, detect and respond to environmental threats. The unprecedented recent increases in knowledge of organisms, their functioning, genetics, behavior, and interactions with each other are transforming our understanding of life and the best ways to protect and conserve it. The increasing use and applications of biological techniques and information are opening a wide array of new employment opportunities for life sciences graduates. As the importance of ecology has increased in society, the demand for skilled ecologists has expanded not only in environmental monitoring and waste management, but also in research and education, sustainable forestry and agriculture, conservation, bioethics, journalism, law, and a range of technical professions.

As a conclusion, ecology is important to us financially, aesthetically, and also for our simple survival on this planet. A person is a whole and complete system, and that, when making significant change to one part of that system, it was absolutely important to ensure that the system as a whole was not adversely affected. Ecology is so dynamic that even the smallest perturbation can upset everything.

Take That - I'd wait for life

There's a place we used to be
There's a face that I used to see
There's a picture with you by my side
There's a moment that I want to find.

I don't know where to start
Or how to begin
But I know I love you still.

If you ever turn away
If you ever change your mind
If the road ahead becomes too hard to climb
If there's something in your heart that tells you to stop
Oh to hold you close tonight
I'd wait for life.

There's a voice shouting inside my head
There's a space on your side of the bed
There's a hope every time there's a sound
There's a silence that's playing too loud

I don't know how you are
Or how you may be
But I know I love you still.

If I close my eyes
I'll dream a little deeper baby
'Cause you are always on my mind
Yeah you are always on my mind
For life.

cheerioous~!! (◕‿◕✿)

Fear of rejection

so, after hours of silent fight between me and VanZiq, we finally at peace again. after a thousands of routine daily call from him, finally, finally, he stops calling me yesterday. erm, we're in fight so... obviously he wont call, i almost, ALMOST miss him thou. hahaha, but then, as always (he always the sensible one) he make the call. hahaha, he make me almost miss his voice. but, it never better when i heard his voice. damn, i'm lame. wth. lmao.


so, we're get back to the root of our fight, he's in very bad mood yesterday... seems like everything he did yesterday didn't work out very well, and well... yes of course, when he need me most i'm not there for him. lol, i forgot to recharge my cellphone. it happens sometime thou. just not the right time yesterday. hahaha. so, my post today basically about fear of rejection, which my dear are facing right now. fear of his project paper will be rejected. i guess its in the same boat.


Almost all of us face rejection at some point of time in our lives. Sometimes, we are rejected for a job offer while other times we face a rejection in relationships. While most of us brush the rejection off and look out for newer opportunities, there are some people who cling to the rejection that came their way. These people simply refuse to accept the fact that they could be rejected in life. One rejection gives a way to the fear of rejection in future, which prevents the person from giving his best and subsequently results in rejection. Thus, the fear of rejection is a vicious circle.


Individuals who experience fear of rejection are found to have a troubled childhood. They never felt loved by their parents or other family members. Also, the constant comparison with their siblings or other kids induces a feeling that if they are not perfect, so they will not be loved. Thus, these kids try to imitate the behavior of the ones who they admire. This is a frantic attempt to fulfill others' expectations so that they are accepted within the group and eventually loved. In the process, they shed their true identity and try to become what people want them to be. This has very negative repercussions on the psyche of the kid. These kids then grow up to become adults who turn out to be 'yes men'. Low self esteem is the most significant personality trait observed in these people.


Although, there are no unique fear of rejection symptoms, these people do exhibit a peculiar behavioral pattern. Such people are not ready to openly communicate and never express their views upon something. More so, if their views happen to be different from the ones they are trying to please. They find it hard to say 'no' to the people they are trying to appease. They even keep their personal feelings hidden. Fear of rejection in relationship often stems from previously failed relationships or rejections. These people are wary of initiating a new relationship or simply asking someone out. They fear that they might be turned down. If they are already in a relationship they might take it too seriously too early, which might drive the other person crazy. These people often associate dangerous words like 'loser', 'incapable', 'humiliation' etc. with rejection. Obviously, this hampers their self esteem in the long run.

People who have a fear of rejection are often manipulated and taken undue advantage of by others, especially those who have a strong impact on the person. While the concerned person bends at their will every now and then, these wicked people have a good laugh at the victim's expense. Unfortunately, no matter how hard a person tries to behave as per the wishes of those who influence him, he is never allowed in their inner circle.

Overcoming fear of rejection is a gradual process that extends over days or even months. The person who faces a fear of rejection needs extensive help from friends and family to come to terms with his true self. He should be taught about how to take things lightly and that rejection is not the end of the world. One rejection often paves way to a new opportunity, which might turn better than you ever imagined. Running away from one's true self cannot bring happiness in your life, instead, the act of molding yourself as per others' wishes can leave you miserable and in a state of self pity. You can be truly happy only when you love the way you are. Interestingly, people will also love you only if you come across as a genuine person, true to yourself.